Can I just. Just. This. FUck. I mean. Fuck.
I don't know how to be coherent right now. words i need words
can i just
Since what I mostly blog about (do i blog? oh my fuck i have a blog. coherence. not.) feelings! yes! since it's my ranting blog! Also capitals but oh well. Okay so. OKay. Right. A little backstory (which will not be the essay on mcr but that too) - Gerard Way's solo album is not really my thing. I mean I tried to like it and I appreciate it and I respect it but it is going to take some time for me to get used to the sound. That being said I think I am going to be in love with this song very, very soon (i might or might not be a little biased). Just. Feelings. I didn't know it would hit me that hard and I know it's just the Way brothers being the Way brothers buT I WAS ALMOST IN TEARS AND IT DIDN'T EVEN MATTER THAT i spent the first seconds being screamed at by the one recording or that the video was somewhat off sync or that the quality wasn't very good TEARS. it feels. It feels like that time I realized Papa Roach were coming to my country and I wouldn't be here to witness it BUT FUCKING REVERSED BECAUSE I'M FUCKING HAPPY. i just. i can't even explain it. I am so happy for them and for me because I'm happy that they're happy and this sentence lost its sense at some point and i might or might not have no idea what i'm writing at this point but it was really important for some reason to lay my happiness here. It's like that one fanfic (yes, fanfic, shut up) that i like to go back to where they've broken up for reasons but deal with shit and come back unexpectedly and it's epic (way more than i make it sound) BUT THIS IS BETTER because this is real and they are doing whatever the fuck makes them happy and oh my fuck i don't know what i'm doing anymore but my heart is still doing this weird things and i am H-A-P-P-Y.
ps here's a youtube comment that just made me 10 times more fucking happy